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Summer 1993

Love Battery and The Fluid on tour together. The Fluid guys were good friends via their wives, and they got me a gig shooting Love Battery for their EP Nehru Jacket.  It was hot and sweaty and fun. It may have been my only time at CBGB’s but at least I had a pass around my neck 🙂

and yes, the bathroom was memorably disgusting as oft noted…

Love Battery at that time:  Ron Nine, Kevin Whitworth, Bruce Fairweather, and Jason Finn

The lovely Ricky Kulwicki, Fluid guitarist, who sadly passed away in 2011…and yours truly in a rare bang-less moment

shooting in the West Village, when it was still slightly, er, grungy…

Love Battery reunited last year  and have been working on some new stuff –  Click on the photo below to check out their fan page on FB

pretty sunset light off the river…looking good, guys

that was a fun shoot, thanks for the opportunity!

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Ok, so I got obsessed with girls and horses for awhile…

Divy, amazing singer and horsewoman, with Daisy
Gaviota 2001

Ruby Lu and Jane, Trust Ranch
Topanga Canyon 1999

Roach and Crystal, Trust Ranch
Topanga Canyon 1999

Jan and Jasper
Ojai 1995

Santa Ynez 2001

I have such warm memories of these days, filled with grace.
Thank you for sharing your horse love with me

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Joshua Tree 1995

Deep from the vaults, behind the scenes photos starring the lovely Renate and Stacy and yours truly


self-portrait, reality bites style

it’s all about the power of the bulb release

Ok, here’s the deal. Clearly we were young and hot. Did we know that? Like most women, no we did not. At that point I was already wanting to celebrate Women’s Beauty and it was killing me to hear these gorgeous friends going on and on about their back fat, thighs, whatever. I called us together in the motel room  – we circled up and I asked them to close their eyes and we just stood there and felt each other bodies – not in a kinky way, gentlemen – in a way that we had to acknowledged that we all felt the same and if we didn’t think ‘the other’ was fat, then we must not be either. One small step towards healing Body Dysmorphia, one that has stayed with me all these years later.

kicking back at the infamous Joshua Tree Inn, we tried to rock it Gram Parsons style…without,  you know, dying

at the time, Stacy was earnestly studying flamenco. She used to say “I would rather be a shitty flamenco dancer than not one at all”,  an inspiring philosophy which has served me many times throughout the years, especially with my shitty guitar playing 🙂

some outtakes of Stacy and Renate ~ in sepia, the final prints

at the time, my girlfriend Stacy was in the early aftermath of her divorce. She called this image with the martini glass her “I dare you to date me” photo

this was one of the most perfect days ever…this photo is framed at my house

the last light

Love these girls, Love my life!!!

  • Jessicka Chamberlin - A-mazing! Breathtaking.ReplyCancel

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Once upon a time, in the mid to late ’90s, I ventured out to the desert with my friends to make pictures.
I called the series Pioneer Women: Be your Own Promised Land and after three years of exploring this theme, I presented them in a show at ROY in 1998.

I had always been attracted to the desert landscape, and particularly Joshua Tree Monument and its surroundings. Before I ever went there,  I had visions of it in my mind and I “saw” myself taking pictures there, of myself nude in the midst of the barren desert surrounded by Joshua Trees. In the desert all pretences are stripped away, and what is left is the essential. Perhaps I instinctually knew that its open spaces would be a balm for me, and that the journeys I would make there would serve as a catalyst for my artistic rebirth. (Historically, people have been wandering in the desert having visions and confronting the darkness in their souls for like, a really long time)

The desert was everything I’d envisioned and more, but the peace it would bring to my troubled spirit was an unexpected boon. The vastness of the landscape, the open space quieted my mind, while my visual senses were lulled by the endless horizon of Joshua trees sculptural against the widest sky.

I began to get fascinated by the idea of  ‘the West’ ~ A state of mind that represents the spirit of pioneering, of questing for a better life. Having arrived with no place else to go, we look inward, to the land of the imagination and the hopeful desire to better ourselves as well as our situations.

”Remember that the more you feel yourself to be in terra incognita, the more certain you can be that the recovery process is working.
You are your own promised land, your own new frontier” ~ Julia Cameron

We set out  into Joshua Tree Monument at sunset to take pictures. Looking intently through my lens, dazzled by their beauty and the breath-taking quality of light, I barely noticed the cold, the wind, the many Volkswagon buses full of rock climbers slowing down to gawk at us in our decidedly non-Patagonia desert wear . I went into a sort of trance state, focused only on the women and the rapidly changing light, aware of its fleeting nature,  all the effort and preparation I made to get us all there, and prayed that I might be given grace.

That and each subsequent journey all contained similar elements – working with time/against time, the desire to capture something true and timeless, and trying to manage my own debilitating perfectionism. Each trip punctuated and exacerbated my growth process. The support, caring, and understanding I got from the women who made the journeys with me greatly helped me begin to be gentler with myself. Little by little, I began to trust the process – or as my hero Rilke said “to live my questions”

These women are some of my closest friends and I have been a witness to their singular journeys, their struggles and humanity, and they meet these challenges with a strength I admire. I feel honored by the honesty which they offered to me. I feel that I was rewarded by these moments, these images, where we can rest outside of time and aging, and remember our shared joys and pains

I think I started this journey as a quest for Beauty, my own reflected in others, and I ended up searching for strength, within and without…and I became my own Promised Land

  • Bunnie - Of course, I have seen most of these before and love them as much as ever. However, I have never seen the ones two of Jan w/horse–very strong and serene at once. And the photos of you–especially the last. LOVE IT! Your passion, creativity, and strength continue to inspire me. <3 <3ReplyCancel

  • discopouffe - your best work ever! i dont see why the kind eyes women cant have a bit of this too.
    loved seeing this series again. bravo jill!ReplyCancel

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